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Madzz's avatar

Heyyy....this post was soooo touchy. That part...crying in front of him...felt so damn relatable. Last year, I could do nothing but sit and cry, calling out God's name. These hard times shall pass, too. I wrote a post regarding his existence. Would you mind giving it a read?

https://open.substack.com/pub/collidingstars/p/god-you-there-can-you-hear-me?r=2m4q6j&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false

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Sanya's avatar

Thank you. And ofcourse I definitely would!

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Madzz's avatar

No need to thank me, girl. Always here for ya’ <3

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Zia Barti's avatar

yes so perfect...every word hit hard...❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹👏👏👏👑👑👑❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥🫂🫂🫂😭😭😢

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Sanya's avatar

Thank you for your presence here zia. You're an amazing soul❤️❤️🥹🥹🥺

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Zia Barti's avatar

awwweeee tyysm dahhling - so r uuuu ~~~!! 💖💖💖💖🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹👏👏👏💪💪💪👑👑👑💅💅💅😘😘😘😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🫂🫂🫂❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹🥰🥰💖💖🤩🤩🤩

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DrGoodChild's avatar

I feel encapsulated by this. I recently lost someone who committed suicide. It was really horrendous. Thanks for sharing this phenomenal masterpiece.

Btw, I have decided to subscribe, you can do same, if you don’t mind (no pressure though).

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Sanya's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss🥺❤️

And I'm already subscribed to you. Love your posts and reflections!

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DrGoodChild's avatar

Thank you 🙏🏽

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Rich's avatar

This left me teary eyed, I’ve grappled and still grapple with these cyclical thoughts from time to time whether at day or night. There were moments in 2024 where I grappled with thoughts of committing suicide, the reason why I’m still here I’m yet to know why. Then losing my dear friend of mine the same way I would’ve left, this past may midst all that I was dealing with so many painful reminders. But thank you for writing this on so many levels this served as an honest mirror of my soul the parts that I’d often hide, behind jokes or metaphors or silly white lies. From the depths of my soul I love you and a appreciate you more than you know, beyond where words go.✨🤍🫂

Much love,

Rich

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Sanya's avatar

I'm so sorry for your friend Rich, I truly am. I'm here for you if you ever need to talk. I, too, have thought to end it many times but stopped in the final moments. That little spark of hope always saves me. When werw thinking of it, those are our vulnerable moments. Don't let those moments take away everything that you have to offer to the world. World needs to see how you'll change it and even if you don't, your presence here, is enough.

Sending you lots of Love, Rich. You're an amazing soul and your voice is needed here.

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Jonathan Dunn's avatar

This felt like reading a psalm. All your descriptions of God were so great.

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Philosophy-Core's avatar

I've been an atheist for most of my life, and for a small portion of it, I was agnostic. But oh man: when my girlfriend of 2.5 years broke up with me, I suddenly needed some sense of security from a higher power. For a moment, I just needed to know that I wasn’t alone. That I wasn’t worthless. That I deserved to exist. I realize now that it was mostly my own foundation (or lack of it) that brought me to that place in life. I found myself completely overwhelmed with grief, and I thought can disappear because I am unworthy of existing.That me living or not meant nothing.You work reminded me of that time, but hey, we still gotta do what we gotta do right? There is no rush, eventually I am gonna die of natural causes anyway.

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Sanya's avatar

🥺😭

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Sanya's avatar

Love the way you put it Andratus❤️🥹

Beautiful and philosophical!

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